I really need to stop reading my horoscope from this site-it's trying to turn me into a hippie.

Wednesday Sep 16, 2009

The muse is crawling up your spine, and dancing with your brain. Take advantage of today’s explosive creative energies. Be experimental with your hands: write, splat paint, play slide guitar or press rhinestones around your eyelids. You could also surprise your true love with a tray of Peruvian-Japanese fusion sushi rolls. Either way, get carried away with imaginative experimentation and play. There’s no such thing as going too far or being too much.

SUMMER//FALL

the west coast<>east coast mind meld was a perfect end of summer. It was everything full circle from where I left it last August to move back, except this FALL I'll be in New York and getting started on all the things I should have started last Fall, but instead let myself get side tracked in other people's ideas and dreams for me. I don't want that anymore, I want to be productive in myself, it seems as if I'm always trying to work with other people on projects and it slows me down; weighs me down. I'm so excited for this Fall.

SF was amazing, I saw all the people I missed and met new friends to miss in the future, new friends to visit too and be pen pals with. when I was there we talked about how sad it is that pen pal culture that was so vital in riot grrl in the 90's is virtually dead now: I hate that, I'm bringing pen pal buddies back! starting this Fall. I'm psyched on all the care packages and little projects I have whirling around in my head to send all buddies-if I can get my tape player fixed, mix tapes will be part of that too. Classes start next Monday-I'm excited to do that again and get working in the bakery again.

ALL Y'ALL FALL:

-pickle/kimchi/sauerkraut MAKING! FERMENTATION-yay!
-Christeen is gonna teach me all about SOUPS
-earl grey tea with vanilla soy milk
-veganism:giving it a second chance
-tarot card/ferris wheel/top 5 zine
-women of color in punk zine
-sketching stuff
-building up a skateboard-to SKATE with!
-playing bass in a totally awesome lady band!
-making mixtapes/sending care packages
--writing lettersss and pen pal-ing
-making best friend patches
-learning book binding techniques
-bi-coastal book list mind meld
-visiting the west coast again sooner than later.

<3

this whole month has been a shit storm, a horrible start to being 23. I can't wait for July, I can only hope that things improve by then. so much for endless summer, it barely feels like summer since it's been raining so on and off and all facets of my life have pretty much been fucked by incidents that I had no control and actions that were someone elses. I just want to leave again, before I know it this summer that I've been looking to all year will be over and school will start again, and at least there's something comforting in that. life is hell.hell is life.

destined to be alone

you are the worst. i can't believe i thought you were such a good guy. you have made me feel the worst someone's made me feel in a long time and i kind of hate you for it.

mini-tour this weekend. i'm not even psyched anymore.

here comes summer

last night was zombie dogs first show, at my house with nuclear party, bad blood and secret service. it was amazingly rad and the circle pit that tam got started for our last song was awesome. Everyone had really sweet things to say and I can't wait to play our next show.

lately, I've been:
playing bass in two bands
maximum hangage with best buddies
sleeping too little
studying too much for midterms
waiting for spring break '09
planning for the birds workshop in DC this weekend
making plans for summer
making brutal pies with jon
building a bed frame
planning mixtape trades
missing far away buddies
writing letters
sitting in the park
drinking coffeecoffeecoffee
being vegan-for a little while at least
catching up on episodes of LOST
writing songs
being quoted in MRR!
missing west coast buddies & calling them up
going to friends springtime shows!
readingreadingreadingreading

sweet little room

the past month,
has been building a wall, painting my room dandelion yellow and stringing up xmas lights to light my room. I've been having band practice every monday now, joined for the birds and been to a couple of meetings/tabling for that. coming to terms with a lot of things I've been ignoring for a long time-and it feels good, like a good start to the year. the past month has just been getting everything settled, running around from show to show to catch up hangouts with a million people I missed while I was away and new people that I really like being a part of my week.
next week the insane school schedule I set up for myself starts, jon moves here, riot grrl cover show in less than a month. there's a lot of things to look forward to and I haven't even started school yet or tried to find the part time job I need to fit in somewhere.
the past few days have been me home sick with a fever/flu. tonight I wanted to go over to rosie's and ran into my neighbor who had just gotten robbed, then ate it in the snow on my bike and decided to just stay home after all. tomorrow i replace my crappy space heater with one that works and then band practice.
other than that, new years was great minus some things, everything else has been pretty great too.
i still miss you,i still feel like a L7 weenie because of it.