i've been making lots of soups lately-and making lists of goals/things I want/need in my life to feel a little bit more sane than I've been. A little bit more okay than I've been lately. It's working for the most part. workschoolworkschoolworkschool. i need less drama more alone ok time. band practice has been pretty good.

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seeing you is like feeling like i'm home wherever I am. that's scary sometimes.

when i wonder if you're escaping southbound and maybe being with someone else who's waiting out there i feel like i'm going to puke. probably because this would be the second time that's happened to me without me knowing.